Today I went in for orientation at my new job. I will be a NA for Four Seasons In Home Services. I start tomorrow morning at 8. I have four days off this month starting with this weekend. I work a lot which means I won't be around Addie very often. It's going to be tough at first until I can get the hang of it, but it will be well worth it. God is giving me an opportunity to give Addie and myself a better life than what we have. I have to rely on my best friend and my parents for childcare since her dad doesn't seem very interested in taking care of her.
I don't understand why he doesn't want to take care of her. She is an amazing little girl and he is and will be missing out on a lot of things with her. I feel really bad for her. She already doesn't see one parent enough and now she won't be seeing her mommy very much. It breaks my heart. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for this job. I just wish that I had a few more days off that I could spend with her. :(
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
So I figured that since I haven't blogged in a little while I would give an update. Addison is growing and developing every day. She still calls everything puppy, but she has started to call my friend's cats kitty. We're trying to get her to go downstairs by herself. She has been switching moods a lot lately and I think it's because of her teething.
I have a job now. I am going to be a substitute teacher at a daycare center, which is awesome. I have been trying to get a job at a daycare for quite some time now and I finally caught a break. I am really excited to do a job that I love. I bet it will allow me to learn more about myself and gain a different perspective of life. I am really thankful for my friends who have supported me and been really encouraging along the way. I am also really thankful that God has allowed this opportunity to rise so I can provide for my daughter and myself.
Some stressful things have happened today as well. I found out that my phone is going to be shut off. Someone got behind on paying the bill so in the next few days my phone will be shut off. Don't worry though, I have an amazing friend who is helping me get a new one. I don't know what I would do without her. She is such a blessing to have in my life!
I have a job now. I am going to be a substitute teacher at a daycare center, which is awesome. I have been trying to get a job at a daycare for quite some time now and I finally caught a break. I am really excited to do a job that I love. I bet it will allow me to learn more about myself and gain a different perspective of life. I am really thankful for my friends who have supported me and been really encouraging along the way. I am also really thankful that God has allowed this opportunity to rise so I can provide for my daughter and myself.
Some stressful things have happened today as well. I found out that my phone is going to be shut off. Someone got behind on paying the bill so in the next few days my phone will be shut off. Don't worry though, I have an amazing friend who is helping me get a new one. I don't know what I would do without her. She is such a blessing to have in my life!
Friday, March 30, 2012
New look, new life.
Tonight my friend Amanda is helping me with my new look. I have not been able to be myself for quite some time and she is trying to bring me out of my shell. I feel like by having a new look it will help me see more positively as I go through this journey of becoming a different person. Now I don't mean different in a bad way.
I dyed my hair brown with highlights. So far it looks great and I am excited to see what the finish product looks like. I feel happy about this change. I know some of my friends and family might be shocked to see me like this, but I want a change. I need a change. I feel more like myself. I hope that my friends and family won't judge me or think of me differently. This is my choice. I am glad that Amanda is very supportive of this change. It's a good feeling knowing that I have at least one supportive person.
I dyed my hair brown with highlights. So far it looks great and I am excited to see what the finish product looks like. I feel happy about this change. I know some of my friends and family might be shocked to see me like this, but I want a change. I need a change. I feel more like myself. I hope that my friends and family won't judge me or think of me differently. This is my choice. I am glad that Amanda is very supportive of this change. It's a good feeling knowing that I have at least one supportive person.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Addison Jewell and random thoughts.
This morning has been a little rough already. My daughter is teething so that makes her cranky, but even when she is teething she never cries this much. It seems like she cries more as she gets older. I don't know what to do. She didn't want to feed herself breakfast. She wanted me to do it.
She started crying even harder when I wouldn't let her bring her blanket downstairs. I told her that she didn't need it while she was eating breakfast and playing. I love my daughter very much. I just wish there was something I could do to get her to stop crying so much. :(
She finally ate her breakfast by herself and became happier. She was playing and having a good time with my friend's daughters. She said please today, but it sounded more like "pease". It is amazing to see her vocabulary expand. She says mama, mommy, dada, daddy, puppy, kitty, no, and quite a few more. She is really smart. She can pick up toys and put them away. She is learning to throw trash away like her diaper, pieces of paper, wrappers, etc.
She has four teeth on top and two more coming in. She has two teeth on bottom and two more coming in. So she has four teeth in total coming in. She had a nice little break from teething and now she is teething again. I feel bad for her.
In other news, I have started losing weight again. I have lost 10 lbs in the last couple of weeks and I am really excited. The only bad thing is that I have lost that weight by not eating as much as I should or used to. I'm not going to complain too much though because it's bringing me closer to my goal of being able to join the National Guard. I have to lose 15% body fat or get down to 147. I'm hoping that I can reach my goal soon.
Also another thing about Addison. If I ask her if she likes something, she either nods or shakes her head. It's mind boggling knowing that she understands me enough to tell me yes or no. Like I said, she is smart. :)
She started crying even harder when I wouldn't let her bring her blanket downstairs. I told her that she didn't need it while she was eating breakfast and playing. I love my daughter very much. I just wish there was something I could do to get her to stop crying so much. :(
She finally ate her breakfast by herself and became happier. She was playing and having a good time with my friend's daughters. She said please today, but it sounded more like "pease". It is amazing to see her vocabulary expand. She says mama, mommy, dada, daddy, puppy, kitty, no, and quite a few more. She is really smart. She can pick up toys and put them away. She is learning to throw trash away like her diaper, pieces of paper, wrappers, etc.
She has four teeth on top and two more coming in. She has two teeth on bottom and two more coming in. So she has four teeth in total coming in. She had a nice little break from teething and now she is teething again. I feel bad for her.
In other news, I have started losing weight again. I have lost 10 lbs in the last couple of weeks and I am really excited. The only bad thing is that I have lost that weight by not eating as much as I should or used to. I'm not going to complain too much though because it's bringing me closer to my goal of being able to join the National Guard. I have to lose 15% body fat or get down to 147. I'm hoping that I can reach my goal soon.
Also another thing about Addison. If I ask her if she likes something, she either nods or shakes her head. It's mind boggling knowing that she understands me enough to tell me yes or no. Like I said, she is smart. :)
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
My name is Heather Rutherford. This is the first time that I have blogged. I am a 21 year old mother of a beautiful 17 month old daughter. She is my world. I would do anything for her. I try to be a good mother, but I know that I fall short in some areas. I'm probably not as patient with her as I should be, but I am working on that.
I am currently going through a divorce. I was married for 2 and a half years. I got married when I was 18 and had my daughter when I was 19. I am trying to get into the Army National Guard so I can go to school for either nursing or early childhood education. It's also a way for me to provide for my daughter and myself.
I have an amazing best friend who has been there for me when it seemed like everybody else turned their back on me. I have made some terrible mistakes in my life and now I am paying for them. All of those mistakes are learning experiences for me. They're making me become a better person. I have learned what it means to love and put someone else before myself.
I have lost friends because of how they have treated me and others. I am a firm believer that actions speak louder than words. If I do or say something wrong, I hope that somebody would tell me so I know what to try and work on. I am stubborn, but I do listen when somebody tells me what I do is wrong. I might not like it, but I know that by not listening I am only hurting myself in the long run.
Anyways, I am the youngest of three. I have an older brother and an older sister. My brother lives in Pennsylvania and is expecting his third child with his finacee. His other two kids are from different women as well. His daughter is 15 and she has turned out to be a very beautiful and strong young lady. She acts older than she really is, which makes me even more proud of her. His son will be 5 in June and he is the cutest little boy ever! I don't get to spend very much time with him since he lives in North Dakota and my niece lives in Springfield, MO.
My sister is married and expecting her first child! I am super excited and can't wait to meet him/ her. She and her husband live close to my parents, which makes my mom happy. You know how grandparents are lol. My sister is my best friend. She will be a great mother. :)
Well I guess this is all that I will post about. As my friend Amanda would say, "Just keep watching."
I am currently going through a divorce. I was married for 2 and a half years. I got married when I was 18 and had my daughter when I was 19. I am trying to get into the Army National Guard so I can go to school for either nursing or early childhood education. It's also a way for me to provide for my daughter and myself.
I have an amazing best friend who has been there for me when it seemed like everybody else turned their back on me. I have made some terrible mistakes in my life and now I am paying for them. All of those mistakes are learning experiences for me. They're making me become a better person. I have learned what it means to love and put someone else before myself.
I have lost friends because of how they have treated me and others. I am a firm believer that actions speak louder than words. If I do or say something wrong, I hope that somebody would tell me so I know what to try and work on. I am stubborn, but I do listen when somebody tells me what I do is wrong. I might not like it, but I know that by not listening I am only hurting myself in the long run.
Anyways, I am the youngest of three. I have an older brother and an older sister. My brother lives in Pennsylvania and is expecting his third child with his finacee. His other two kids are from different women as well. His daughter is 15 and she has turned out to be a very beautiful and strong young lady. She acts older than she really is, which makes me even more proud of her. His son will be 5 in June and he is the cutest little boy ever! I don't get to spend very much time with him since he lives in North Dakota and my niece lives in Springfield, MO.
My sister is married and expecting her first child! I am super excited and can't wait to meet him/ her. She and her husband live close to my parents, which makes my mom happy. You know how grandparents are lol. My sister is my best friend. She will be a great mother. :)
Well I guess this is all that I will post about. As my friend Amanda would say, "Just keep watching."
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